This trip has definitely had an effect on me. The wondering what she is doing, if she is with him, etc. I just don't understand why I am so hung up on this. I am trying to get passed this. It is hard to GAL right now, while I am watching the kids, but I am noticing that this is all affecting me.
I have shorter patience, especially with my kids, I tend to scream at them, my oldest is also being affected by this, as he has expressed how he wants to go home, and doesn't want to come with me, he sometimes says things that hurt, and I express that he shouldn't say that, but I know he is a child and has no filter, it doesn't mean he means what he says, it just hurts at times, because I don't want this for them or myself.
I am again angry, it builds up in me. I don't lash out at my wife, and my kids, its mostly at myself and internal dialogue. I may need to join one of those classes where I beat on a pillow or something. Thinking I should join Karate again or take boxing.
I am going to re-read "NMMNG"; seems like I have a lot of maturing to do in this department. I need to some coping strategies to stop from thinking about her and what she is doing. Does anyone have any thoughts? I really need the help. I am tired of feeling this way.
God Bless
Im not trying to be a jerk, and I understand if youd like to ignore this question.
How do things change for you if she is sleeping with OM?
