V is for Vanilla 24

[Vanilla]

Hi vanillia. Just caught up and would really appreciate an update or even a quick post to let us know your ok.

I read your last post and feel your taking to much blame. / responsibility.

I often wonder if I both took on too much and too little. I didn't reinforce my boundaries when WH ranted. I also wish I had recorded more of WH rants.

H was a sneaky , manipulative basta@d You are a caring , decent person.

RD largely that's true, I do have my sad moments when I let myself down and need to adjust and review. WH is empty inside, like Gollum, we should be wary and also be praying for him.

How where you supposed to see his actions for what they were ?????

I could have enforced my boundaries a little more.And I did have my screaming banshee phase too.

You loved the man and having the privilege to getting to know you , maybe you still do.

I love of course, but the love I have is for a dream, for M, for R and for memories.

Let go the blame you are carrying , it's not your burden to carry.

A little of it is, and the financial burden is mine now.

I defend him in eaier days because your posts did not show his true character because at that point you couldn't see them.

I know, I only saw my own faults.


I'm a cynical type who has employed 100"s of people over the years and I gave your H the benefit of the doubt .

I still do.

Your love made you blind and that's ok. Your not blind now so let's move forward. H is done. Please don't let his actions define you.

My actions define me, not his.

I've been privileged to become a friend on line and trust me , H is the big loser here. With you he had a chance to recover and become the man he should be, without you be is going nowhere.

WH will survive that's his type, and RD sad to say he isn't interested in becoming.

Sandi and job were good enough to clarify the rules on my thread and I'm always here , online or in real life if you need someone.

Thank you RD, dearest Internet bruv.

I worry ( like plenty of others ) that you are ok.

I am just tired because of overwork, but it will resolve itself I know this. please don't worry, trust me enough to know that if I need help I will ask for it. I am strong enough to be honest about my feelings.

I ask again for an update

How's Vanillia ..... Really ?

Suffering from PTSD

How's glam sis ????

Still unwell and off sick from work. She is healing too and has been told to lose weight and get well.

How often do you see ghost of black cat ???

Mainly when I am tired or after a glass of vino! I jest of course, but about once every month. She is gradually passing over as her visits are less and less.

It must be heart warming to now she's still around

RD it is wonderful to know she is still around the house, it comforts me.

I hope all is well and you are taking time for you.

I am working too hard but I am coping.

Huge hugs and take care Sis Rd. xxxx