less confused newbie (7)

[dday]

I am proud of myself for not reaching out to W today. I felt, after the last few days, that she would have reached out to me. No expectations, ha! But, I am not bummed about it. I was hopeful, obviously too much so, but I did not let it get the best of me today.

Been texting my sister a bit, to help compensate for the lonely feeling partly. She is being very supportive. Telling me that she's happy that I am putting myself first for now. That I am someone only a fool would leave. I really feel like that is becoming more true. I think I have gotten over most of my flaws. Always room to improve, but I have knocked down the roughest parts of me.

Validation is my new goal. I am not great at it, and I would like to be. So, it's next on my list of improvements. If W keeps opening up, then I should get many opportunities. I am a fixer by nature, it's even my job. So I always offered possible solutions. I always thought that was what she was wanting when she told me any problems. I never just validated her feelings. I will try to be better.