ILYNOT -- that is exactly how i feel. I dont think i could take her back no matter how much i need her right now. Not unless she really works on herself and truly accepts and repents to our Lord. I deserve a wife that puts God first. I remember Saturday i burst out in tears again because i missed her and i prayed about and i asked God why he hadn't brought her back why is he splitting us in 2, we should be happy and have the family me and her never had. I just opened my bible randomly and the first paragraph i read was luke 11:24 - it gave me goosebumps
Angel, I truly believe you have a chance having your family back, your W left you a blueprint as to whom you were! We all wish we had that from our spouses. You still have a chance brother! Keep praying, keep learning, keep changing.
