Jelly, I think you were sent to me! I've been so lost, trying to be brave and strong, succeeding in a few areas, but feeling like an utter failure in most. You encouraged me to read through your old threads, and I am in the midst of doing that.
I stopped for a second to come back here and thank you for pointing me in that direction! The information and strategies about self-healing and dealing with depression discussed by you and others is completely altering my outlook. For the first time, I'm starting to feel real hope that I can understand myself and learn what I need to in order to reinvent myself into a complete, whole, and healthy person.
Struggling with the feeling of being "broken" has seriously undermined my self-esteem. It's also put me in a position of being I'll-treated, because deep down, H' s treatment of me is a reflection of how I believe I deserve to be treated. It's not something I consciously do. I just don't think highly enough of myself to demand better.
I'll go back to reading your thread, and taking notes. The timing of this could not have been better...I was spiraling down. Thank you for being so honest in your situation. As I continue to learn, I will keep doing the same in mine.
