Have been feeling ok these past few days. Still not thrill that my wife is on a business trip and will be meeting OM, but working on redirecting those thoughts into something else or better yet someone else...myself. I have the boys, so that is always great, a bit stressful to get them ready and tend to them from time to time but love the company and love seeing them. FaceTime with her this morning, which makes me both feel good and bad, but I am glad she called the boys, last trip she didn't at all.
I remember a while back she stated that she was thankful to me for two things.
1. I gave her our boys 2. I helped her find her true self
This to me is insulting, but I don't say anything. I have done so much for her, and still do. Aside from that, this true self, doesn't manage money well, is in debt, one phone cut off, in collections, can't afford groceries at times, buys clothes instead of using that money to buy food for our kids, hasn't paid the utilities, sometimes forgets to call her kids, is self-involved and overly selfish. Is unappreciative. I mean, if this is who she is truly, then I am sorry...I don't want that.
Sorry, I just needed to get that down, and vent a bit. It is hurtful to love a person so much, and that person disregard your feelings so easily after so many years.
That aside. I have kept up with my goals.
Have continue my morning ritual, researching the business idea, and want to start purchasing products and setting it up soon. Have fought the urge to argue and snoop. I will put another post together with updates on goals.
God Bless you all.
M: 34 W: 33 S: 7 S: 14 months BD: 6/2015 Separation: 6/2015 Back and Forth between Home and Moms
