Every time I focus on H, I mentally go to a place that is not healthy for me. When I focus on ME, my hopes, my dreams...life starts to look both frightening and exciting. I don't want to be alone, but figure it's high time I made some new friends.
This is a great point, and I have been realizing the same thing. I find myself focusing less on him and it is easier mentally. Now I have to move on. I feel stagnant, because now husband and I have to proceed legally. I have to be careful with everything. At least this is on to step 2. Step 1 was waiting for him to decide if he wanted to work on reconciliation.
I long for male companionship. I want that distraction and excitement and something to look forward to. I know it's too early and I am supposed to focus on me and do work on me. I wish it could be husband, but This is his choice and I have been thinking about a quote in someone else's post that said "in love I take no hostages". If husband does not want to be with me, then I will find someone that actually does. I contributed, but trust me his flaws were numerous as well.
Me: 42 H: 43 Twins age 5 Physically Separated 7/2015
