V is for Vanilla 24

[JulieH]

Vanilla

I hope you are getting the support you provide so selflessly to others. I do not have your wisdom to impart, but I am deeply concerned about the physical toll this has taken on you.

As I mentioned, I was in a very controlling and abusive ( occasionally physical) relationship close to 20 years ago. The nightmares still occur although they are very infrequent. For me, the hardest part was understanding why on earth I allowed someone to treat me that way. Allowing someone to treat me that way went against my own intellect and feminist views and I was mad at myself for allowing it to go on for so long and for being that "weak" and naive person.

I don't know if perhaps you feel similar? Do you ever look at it the way I just described...not intellectually, but deep down? If so, have you forgiven yourself for that lapse of internal strength? Also, Do you look and think of your body with love and kindness? (For example, instead of referring to an injured leg as the "bad" leg you refer to it as the right leg. ).

I just hope that you are able use the advise you give to others on your own wonderful self.

J