Jelly, I suffer from major depressive disorder. Out of all the things I need to learn, managing this monster is at the top of the list. It has stolen so much from my life...I don't want to give it anymore.
As far as talking to H...I hate mentioning it to him, but he was heaping so much spew on me, I brought it up to let him know I was being overwhelmed. In the past, he would stop. New H just adds more hateful statements. Good to know - need to get better at faking.
Thanks for reaffirming I need to take care of basic needs to best manage my brain/moods: exercise, eat well, sleep well, look for positives. I've got bad behaviors so deeply ingrained, I always go right back to it. I need to make some sign for my mirror...
