Adjusting to which new reality, Pho? That I'm a criminal now, or that I'm disposable? Either one is awful. I'm almost ready to give in to H's extortion so I can have the charges dismissed. I can't get a job in my new field with this hanging over my head. He knows this, of course, but doesn't care. He doesn't care about my mental state, either. If I give in to temptation, and just die, it'll solve all his problems. The kids won't be in the middle, and I won't have to borrow more money.
But that's weakness, isn't it? I really think I have too much to deal with. I'm not that strong. I need help, but have no idea where to get any.
