I'm sorry I don't know you sitch very well and you don't know me. But I wanted to acknowledge your brave post, a statement of your past hopelessness and overwhelm. I have a similar story of my own and I know that it takes some time to tell it.
I had alot of shame about it for many years. I am not saying that you do. Thank you for trusting us with your story. And thank you for blessing us with your continued presence here on the planet, you are a blessing for your son and for those who are going to benefit from your life's journey.