have i been making mistakes too long part 7

[tkdmme]

Guys, Thanks for the replies and advise.

I want to us to separate. I know that its the only way that anything could possibly get better between us. The problem is that, even though she has said she would leave numerous times, she is still in the house. What am I to do? I have no one in town that I can live with for free and I cant pay our mortgage and rent an apartment. there is no solution to my problem. Why on earth would she not just move in with her mother.

When she has said she would move out in the past I would get a knot in my stomach and start feeling worried. However this past weekend when she said she would move out, I felt relieved and started to think of the things around the house I could get done without her there. I felt like I would finally start to truly detach.

I don't know how anyone can truly detach during an in house separation. im not sure its even possible.