Ancaire, I just drank half a bottle of wine so I hope that doesn't reflect in my post. Do not fall for his blackmail scheme. He is a desperate man. Stay calm, talk through your L, disengage. You have the rest of your life to figure out what happened, but right now you need to disengage and stop trying to make sense of this. There is no sense. Protect yourself. Heal, hide, cry, go for walks, pray, whatever you need to do to get through each day. This is your season to walk through this pain, walk through it. You will come out on the other end. It will hurt, there is no way around it, just get through it. You are not to blame. My heart breaks for you. Eat well, sleep if you can, seek company of family and friends. This is going to take time. Be well my friend, you are not alone.
