Feeling Numb

[Elly4]

Hey everyone, I can't believe it's been almost a month since I last posted. I'm so sorry that I'm woefully behind on your sitches. I will try to catch up in the next few days. Things haven't been going great here (sorry, BT. I would have preferred the getaway!)

The divorce proceedings have started and my husband should be moving out around December 1st. I can't believe it's actually happening. I've been trying to do some good things for myself and my son, but in the background I am always in pain/loss.

I met with my lawyer for the first time on Monday and he thinks that my H and I should be able to file jointly which would be easier and quicker. The problem will be custody. I though 5 nights, 6 days were good in a 14 day period for my h, but he does not.

I'm lost and if one more person tells me that I'm doing amazing through this all, I think I'll yell.

Sorry for the pity party. I'm just tired physically and mentally. Most nights at least I fall dead asleep, but I really want to make the time to come on here. I do better when I'm posting on here. Less than a month until I'm a single mom.