A really weak part of me still wants to save M. I argued with H, said what I'd done was stupid, but not impossible to forgive. I said it didn't even rate as high as adultery in things that would be difficult to forgive.
He said I'd threatened to kill him when I lost my head. Apparently, he is afraid I will snap again one day and kill him.
I think he's grasping at straws. 21 years, and I've never even broken a plate. He really wants out. I'm so upset about the extortion and affairs (pretty sure they're an indication of lack of character) I'm not sure what I'm trying to save.
He's really pushing me on D. I said I had to deal with criminal stuff first. He said it could all go away, it was up to me...
I felt true hatred and disgust. I raised 5 children, offered compassion and forgiveness, been a loyal faithful wife for 20 years...and this is my thanks?
