Ugh. Calm talk with H. He informs me I can place blame for destroying the family firmly on myself. We were going to work it out until I freaked out.
Finally, finally, I understand the futility of R talks with a H-WAS. No matter what, H is always a victim and I am always a perpetrator. If I admit to some responsibility, I somehow become responsible for all.
He continues his extortion scheme, unaware I have it recorded. He says I can make all my problems go away if I'll agree to his terms. I believe I'm getting ready to turn onto "Done" Rd. This is ridiculous.
I wish he'd never agreed to work on us. I'd be so much farther along by now, although I would be unaware of how deep his betrayals go...not sure that knowledge has helped me in any way.
