First and foremost, I want to apologize for putting blame back on you. I apologize for sending that email to you. It has been hard for me, I am going through one of the biggest emotional roller coasters I have ever ridden. I have allowed my emotions to get the best from me.One day I accept my flaws and the other I am blaming you for part of the downfall. I am beginning to understand who would really want to deal with someone like that? I don’t take the fact that yes I did abuse you silently for not being there for you. That is a fact and it is something I will keep working on myself in order for it not to affect my daughters. My main focus are them. I have come to accept that it is useless for me to try and change your mind, because quite frankly I can’t. I accept your request for divorce and I will not stop you from getting it. I don’t mean anything harassing in this email and if I did I apologize. Moving forward I want to tell you thank you. Thank you for slapping me in my face and actually looking in the mirror. Where is my self-respect? I have to love myself first. Quite frankly I always tried to put someone else' happiness before mine. I am not a victim of physical abuse, I let it continue. I am not a victim of verbal abuse, I let it continue. I am not a victim of emotional affair, I let it continue. I don't believe in divorce but I won't stand in your way. You have every right to get it. Keeping you chained to this relationship is a big mistake and quite frankly you deserve to be happy. I want to see you happy.
this was the email i was going to send her , but ill just throw it to the trash.
