PP's WAW Adventure Continues - (8)

[PigPen]

Monday morning journaling. Had a peaceful weekend with my dog, lots of running, frolicking, and ingestion of red meats. He's happy as can be.

I'm determined this week to have a more fruitful week than last. Last week I completely let the dog swap get the best of me and I lost a number of days to fantasizing about being back with my W. Of having conversations in my head that would convince her that we were a great couple and that our M could work out in all of the ways that we both wanted. I believe that in my heart still.

Lately I feel the urge again to "do" something. I feel like I'm on a sinking ship and am just sitting there watching it slowly go down with the strategy that by doing so hopefully it somehow rights itself. I know DB'ing is about patience and letting things play out, it's such a hard lesson to stand still and let be what will be.

Last weeks' swap was such a great connection between my WAW and myself, but left me in a difficult place myself. I want this week to be another great connection but to make sure that when I leave I don't spend the next few days with my head in the wrong place. It's another opportunity to practice boundary setting, yet be there with love in my heart.

I hope everyone has a peaceful week.

PP