Hi BrightFuture- Just want to let you know that I am thinking of you. Sorry to hear you are going through a rough patch.

I too was having anxiety about everything. Anxiety is such a strange thing. Inside I felt like there was a tornado in my mind, heart and brain. Everything felt so unsettled. I play competitive tennis and people would tell me I seemed calm. Yet, inside I felt like such a mess. It astounded me that to others saw me as settled.

As you may already know, anxiety is about future worries, right? I know you are going out with friends and see your son, etc. One thing that helped me is to really fatigue my body via walking, hiking, tennis, biking, etc. It just got all that anxiety out and then I am less tired/down too. Maybe you already do physical stuff but if so maybe try more of it? Just a thought.

Sending you positive karma.

Me 41, H 47, M 15 yrs, S11, S13
BD 1: 11/4/14 we work on it; really I pretzel myself
BD 2: 3/31/15 H goes down to "dorm room"
8/15: H back to MBR
10/15: H back in dorm room
1/18: H files, now divorced