Photoka, "girl talk" section would be great! The shopping has been the main highlight and I have the excuse that all my clothes are too big.! It's awesome running into people from high school and being the same size! I'm now highly motivated to really get intensive at the gym and start wearing sexier clothes. I would love to find a long sleeve sweater dress that's very form fitting and wear it with boots. I recognize the irony because husband would always tell me how I should dress up more, that I have a great figure and need to show off and I always felt insecure because I wasn't high school weight. But my guilt is Non existent because I used to beg him to take us on vacations and he would always say we couldn't afford it, but now he's off on vacation supposedly with friends. Today I just don't care what he's doing. He has been so awful to me and doesn't want to try. Yes I was pretty awful as well, but I was willing to try. I have been told "consider this his gift" or "this is your out". By some close friends and family that have seen how selfish he was with me and kids. I worry about future, but honestly we were pretty down for a long time, so husband was trying to make change the only way he felt was possible. He didn't think it was possible for us to be happy together. I think it would have been hard, but possible if we moved out of my family's house. He didn't want to. So in a way, it's easier not being the one to have to make this decision.
Me: 42 H: 43 Twins age 5 Physically Separated 7/2015
