Things that make you go hmmmm

[Flight]

Not sure about all of your sitch, but you seem to be coming from a place of need and she knows it. She can push your buttons. Was the "you're still alive" a dig at you because she expects you to be in constant contact? Are you sure that she wasn't just saying "no thanks" and had to run? A simple text or one call woud do from you to her. She may feel you are chasing her. Can you sense yourself feeling a little desperate after the first call? "Why is she not ansering??? Why didn't she return my call??" Detach, detach, detach.

Decided to send message saying I went to mall to look for what she wanted and find this from her. I try to call her and she does not pick up. I do not know why the attitude but this is not the way to solve this. I then wish her a good night, if she changes her mind she knows where to find me. I miss them and thinking of them. I then end it with a kiss and a bye.

This does nothing but put pressure on her. Now you are chasing her AND lecturing her. Never argue, never make her wrong. Don't acknowledge she didn't pick up. Also, saying you miss them (implying her too) and ending it with a kiss would normally be needy and pursuing also, unless you have been doing that with each other still each night. It seems like she is still letting you hug her, so maybe "miss you and 'mwah'" is ok. You didn't say, "I love you", so I guess you guys aren't there yet.

Be calm, cool, collected, confident. You don't care about the outcome. You can't control her reactions. You asked her, she said "no thanks", leave it. Don't let her get you in a position of trying to defend yourself or acting desperate