Went out with a bunch of friends and friends of friends. I looked great (but not in a desperate, attention seeking way) Great thing for my ego was that I did get a lot of male attention. I have to admit, it felt really good, although I am very aware of my vulnerabilities. Now I didn't do anything to "cheapen" myself, but I couldn't help but think of things a little more positively....this could be fun. I can have no guilt, because my husband left me. I really haven't experienced that type of attention from my husband in a long time. It would be so nice, and I know would help me detach from him. That male attention also gave me hope for the future. I know I'm not supposed to need that to feel good, but I will be honest I did. (Although I certainly did not show it). I really need to make an effort to get out more, because today I didn't have anger at my husband. I was a little more empathetic and looking forward to what the future might bring. Although I am dreading the legal and paperwork aspect.
Me: 42 H: 43 Twins age 5 Physically Separated 7/2015