Today, there is so much going on in my head. I'm trying to make sense of everything, but I already know with a WAH, sense is not easily found. All my thoughts are conflicting.
I don't want to Divorce. I want to keep my family together. I believe my H is still in there, somewhere. I meant my vows, for better for worse...this is clearly worse. I'll be alone, because I won't be D in my heart.
H is broken, no matter what label I use. I can't help him. He blames me for all his unhappiness. I don't want to be treated this way. H wants me to let him go. He's already replaced me.
I'm supposed to be focusing on me. I'm having trouble with that due to my chaotic thoughts. I'm getting conflicting advice on how to deal with H. I want to DB. I believe in him. I believe he could be the man I know he is if he wanted to.
I'm supposed to be focusing on me. I need to let it go. I need to let H go, but don't want to. I need help, clearly. Do I just let him go completely? Yes. I heard you...lol
I think I could use a few suggestions just getting me pointed in the right direction as far as focusing on me. I'm feeling shaky and lonely today. Don't want to call anyone because I have zero desire to recount my experiences last week. I need to tell a few people, but just don't want to today.
Life as I knew it has just blown up, and I'm trying to gather the pieces.
