Party time was a little strained. 6 kids and 4 adults doing Halloween party games with W acting as super mom. Uber organised and efficient. I helped out and was chief photographer. I'm always conscious the dynamic has changed, but tried to act as if.
All the kids loved it and W got lots of compliments from the adults and me . Later when tiding away I complimented her on a great prompt u party and said she should be proud of herself.
Then I took the kids out to a bonfire and. Firework display while W got ready to go to her party.
Overall the best day since BD
I'm trying desperately not to pursue her in the house. Today I so wanted to put my arms around her as we watched our kids play and have fun. There was a small accident and the fireplace hearth got chipped. It's relatively new and W looked crestfallen, I validated and again so wanted just to hug her and say it didn't matter. I did give her a small rub on the small of her back.
Later she got dressed for the party and that is one thing I really miss, watching her dress for a party. I would lie on the bed and watch her whilst we chatted about his and that. Now the door is shut.
Anyway my anxiety levels are way down and I've halved the dosage of sleeping pills. Hope to get rid of them altogether soon.
Tomorrow she will be home about midday. I intend to go out on a one hour bike ride then do a 10k run.
I think she will veg out on the sofa watching Sat TV.
Last edited by isittoolate; 10/31/1509:19 PM.
Me49 W45 T15 M13 S11 S8 BD 11/15/11 & 3/27/12 Moved out 4/9/12 Moved back 4/23/12 W working on US 5/20/12 Now Piecing! May-Oct14 drifting Dec 14 W agrees to more QT BD Oct15 ILYBINILWY W filed 1/25/16
