I would like to add find a kind compassionate woman to share my life with, to sit by the fireplace and read books with, hike and explore natures beauty with and last but not least grow old with a woman I love.
I think the isolation of my situation is getting to me. It reminds me of a quote I know. "The coldest winter I felt was a summer in San Francisco". I would change that around to The loneliest time of my life was last year of my marriage to my wife.
Mutatio, I am right there with you. I want my wife of a few years ago back, but if she is gone for good then I want to be far away from this woman. Unfortunately, my boys are VERY young. So I will be stuck with these feelings for 15 years or more. We live in a very small town too, and neither of us will move away because of the boys.
I do like your idea of moving to the Rockies. I like Colorado, and Idaho intrigues me too. I would just like to have my own dog back, I don't need a new one.
I too feel very lonely. I try not to be here at my rental house. It's too quiet and lonely. I can only keep myself company for so long!
Hang in there mutatio. You are improving, we all are. Be someone only a fool would leave. It seems to me that we are all getting there.
Good luck my friend
35 3 boys Not my circus, not my monkeys anymore....
Try to be strong everyone. We're each in our own unique trial. For what reason we do not know. Perhaps there is no reason and we're just prescribing one for ourselves.
Either way, our struggles are real. Our pain is real. And our compassion for each other is the same, it's very real.
The beauty of trials is that they don't last forever and we will all come through to another side. We may have to carry the remnants of the pain of our situations for a lifetime. We may not. Let's each try to have faith in a bigger picture tonight, as well as honoring the pain that we're going through.
M 39 W 36 T5 M3 BD - 1/15 Separated - Same Day Served 9/15 D finalized 6/17
Mutatio, your fantasy is moving right along. It looks like we'll be opening a Camp DB somewhere in the Rockies. I'd like my cabin to have a Jacuzzi tub, flokati rugs, and an enormous crystal chandelier, please. I would be happy with a queen-sized bed, but prefer a king. If you can find a handsome Latin masseuse to be on call, I would be very appreciative.
How many acres do you think we need?
BTW, This is a fun distraction from the current low we all seem to be in. I've been giggling, which is helping my PMA.
There would be a whole lot of coffee being made, methinks. Although I suspect reality wouldn't live up to the fantasies.
Seriously, there'd definitely be a lot of active listening, validating, and support in that community. And, yes. Coffee too.
Perhaps we could support ourselves with a fair-trade roasterie, featuring several distinctive blends: - STFU Smooth(ie) - Bitter WAS - GAL Sunrise Blend - Single Origin Remake "New & Improved 2.0!" - DB Master's Blend
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Me: 50 W:43 S6, S3 M: 12 yrs. T: 17 M is bad & Not happy Bomb Mar '14 S 5 Feb '15 D Bomb 13 Apr '15 (but "no hurry") DB Coach May '15 Wants proceed on D Aug '15 Starting 1-on-1 negotiations Sept '15
