Mid day update. Went to basketball. W has a nasty cold. S6 has a pretty bad cough himself. He played his game and I brought him to my place to grab a sandwich and brush his teeth, because he "forgot". Got him showered and clean and gave him a faux hawk. He's pretty proud of it. Made a warm tea for him and took one to W. Trying to be thoughtful, nice, and acts of service is her ll. We chatted through S8 game. Felt almost like normal.
W made a comment to another mom about helping do something in mid december. W said, "I'm off on Tuesdays, so I can come help". Well, once D is final, she has to go back full time to get insurance. Not sure if she's forgotten that or plans on this dragging out forever or ?
It gives me some hope, that she is not pushing this anymore. I know I need to keep them low. It's tough. Here I was this morning, thinking I was ready to move on... and I'm right back in again. I'm not stressing over it at least, that's an improvement.
I will never be ok with the S, do not want D, but I want some resolution too. I know some say that I am not in limbo, but it sure feels that way.
35 3 boys Not my circus, not my monkeys anymore....
