Sorry V, wish I could give you a real hug and help. You are an inspiration to us all and just motivated me to get up and get my [censored] together so I thank you. Through all of that you still manage to plan gym time and here I am with some equipment and a plan in my own home and I still ruminate on my sitch instead of focusing on improving me.
Praying things ease up soon to give you a rest from the stress.
Accept what is, let go of what was, and have faith in what will be