Still on the first chapter

[Enigma]

Well came back from an amazing trip reconnecting with a good friend I hadn't seen in 10 years. My mind was able to stay clear but a few texts from W brought me back to reality. As she was watching our dog and cat, told me that dog wasn't doing well at her place and asked to visit our home to take care of our dog twice a day.

From communication that has been minimal for one month and only via text, I feel down when she initiates texts ( usually about our son or animals ). When she sent pics of our son I could see OM beside my son to the side and anger and sadness flooded. It got to me for couple days then felt better.

My good friend I visited made me feel better empathize get through a personal similar story to him. But now that I'm home hitting some low points. Now to spend some quality time with S2 as he lifts my spirits.

I just wonder as W has moved on at what point I really move forward. I've given myself timeline Jan 2016 to decide as I focus on myself and time with S2. W seems happy, is a good mom since she is past her rebellious phase, so steady as she goes. I feel better with less communication with her, but still think and dream of her often. I know this will pass and at least my downs don't last as long. This is a journey and a tough one at that.