Thanks for the comments. I think I am getting back on track. I'll keep on working on making myself better, that helps and is fun anyway. In the meantime, I'll be on the look out for small signs of improvement while implementing the DB'ing techniques. I think my plan in regards to my wife now is minimal contact rather than strict no contact following flight's suggestions and example. If/when I reach out again I'll play it out on here first. This situation of separation with basically no contact is tough, not much that I can do. I guess I can make less mistakes though. Hard to have hope but I believe that we have something.