There are just so many things going through my head now that I don't know what to do. I think that my journaling is helping me to some degree.

I am proud to say - and not ashamed to admit - that it has been a while since I have even thought of snooping. At least I conquered that demon! Ok, so that may not be a big step but it is to me.

We ended up spending a good bit of time together yesterday because she had some day surgery done. I don't know what to make of it, but leading up to it she asked me several times if I would be there. I mean, I know that any number of her friends could have picked her up or whatever, but she asked me. I know I shouldn't make anything of it and that I shouldn't get my hopes up, but I do. Guess that is one of my demons... And she has been sending me funny pictures to keep me entertained during work. Again, I know not to get my hopes up, but that was something not seen for quite some time.

Its been a bit since we have had any relationship talk. Sometimes I just want to shake her and say snap out of it! And there are times when I want to do a temperature check. What if she wants to start on us but is too stubborn/prideful to say it? I mean, how is one supposed to know anything if they don't ask?


Last edited by Evil_E; 10/30/15 05:56 PM.
There are moments in this life when you are so confident in the rightness of your actions, that not even for a second do you consider the option that you might be wrong.