Thanks again Z. Glad to have you offering advice, opinions and friendship. Don't apologize. Post away. I suppose my situation and feelings are similar to what you went/are going through. That maybe why you see my pain.

That is a great goal. I know I will be happy and content.I am not sure how but I am sure. As for the no regrets, idk. I guess there will always be a regret if it doesn't work out. But I will be able to look my sons in the eyes and say I did my best.

Just a snippet of info I may delete later. I am a stubborn assed Irish man!

R 25 years
M 14 years
S11 & S13
Working on it alone since Oct 2014
M in trouble a lot earlier (~2 years)
Feb 2016. 1st R chat in a yr.
Next R chat Aug'17
Still together