I think I need to get to the point where I can feel good about my own choices (which would mean knowing that I am treating the people around me with respect for their boundaries and compassion and kindness) and also feel something for him - not that I need him, or that I resent him, or I want him to fix my problems, but just compassion and kindness and interest. In all truth, at the moment, I don't think that. I think he's a self serving coward and I'm angry at him.
I am going to prescribe myself some solitary and with kids GAL time this weekend.
