Ripe, glad to hear things with S are looking better. Hope they continue to improve. Careful with trying to place that blame in W also, there's no telling what caused it for sure.
Im not sure what to say about thr nightclub. I think I could be uncomfortable sldo but I've never been to one either. I have that social anxiety also so I could relate to what you were feeling.
Accept what is, let go of what was, and have faith in what will be
