I been thinking. If my marriage fails and my wife wants to divorce me, I will have to move far away. Till my dying day I will love my wife regardless of what happens to my marriage. If I become divorced I do not ever want to see her again. I will have to see her at my three children's weddings when ever that would be but that's it. It is to painful to see her. It used to kill me when she went on a business trip, now a part of me is happy. The pain is strong when I see her and can't smile, talk, touch or connect with her.
I want to move to the Rocky Mountains, buy some land, build a house, get a dog, live in a high elevation alpine setting and create art.
