I cannot imagine cheating on someone. I think the guilt would eat me alive. Even though I'm well on my way to being D, I just don't see being with anyone else. My views on marriage being for life are so strong, I'm going to need a lot of time to move on, in spite of H's actions. There's also the fact I still love the man. I so desperately want to find a way to reach him and save him from himself. I'm hopeless, I know.
I'm still going to save myself and do what I need to do, but those are my feelings...however unwise they may be. I really don't know how cheaters can live with themselves. I just don't understand.
