Have you ever had dreams in which you were the betrayer? I had a couple of those a long time ago. I still remember the sense of guilt, sadness, regret, despair, and loss of control I had in those dreams. I would wake up so relieved that it was just a dream and that I didn't actually do something like that.
I wonder if at times the cheating spouse feels like that.
I have never actually cheated on anyone before, but in my dream I knew those feelings. I don't even know if my husband has actually cheated (though the signs are there) I am so angry much of the time, numb (which I hoped was a detachment but think it's more depression) and then occasionally a feeling of compassion and love for my husband comes through.
Me: 42 H: 43 Twins age 5 Physically Separated 7/2015
