Back on these forums again 2

[Mona52]

So Yesterday....
After sending a TY message to H, he replies YW. Then he gives me an update n S11's soccer being cancelled last night due to the storms. Weird, because he has never given me an soccer update before. He assumed I know that pouring rain means no soccer. And I do know. Also, I told him he did not have to send me soccer emails anymore because I gave the coach instructions to send me emails.

Before, he used to just forward soccer emails to me. Yesterday he sent me a text and wrote out the update. I thanked him because I actually did not get the email from the coach, I guess I am still not on the list yet.

In a reply to my H I said
"I dont know why I did not get it, I personally typed my phone number and email address into coach's phone so he could contact me whenever."
FYI guys, my S's soccer coach is drop dead handsome.
HA
That opened this weird floodgate and finally I just stopped responding to his text messages. He is trying to open accounts in his name, like cable and electric. He kept texting me wondering why I have not paid off all of his bills. I mean the poor guy cant get cable because he owes the cable company $195.00.

I wanted to validate, but seriously???? 2 and a half months after he goes I finally get a small, partial support payment, and he wants to know why I did not pay his cable bill???

But I am an expert DB'er. He cant knock me off my game, oh no. He asked me if I paid off his cable bill because I said I did and they wont let him open an account until he pays. I replied an hour later, "I paid the Gas bill and your cell bill."
H: "Do I owe the electric company?"
Me: "No idea, you will have to contact them."
H: "But you said you paid all the bills."
At this point any normal woman would visit her mental place and reply "How the #$%@* am I supposed to pay all of your bills when you have not helped me in the slightest?" Then a normal woman would get even angrier because she just broke a nail strangling him.

Instead I texted my dearest mother and spewed all over her.

then I replied, "I paid what I could and canceled the rest and set up accounts only in my name."
He continued to text and text and I completely ignored all text messages. I never, ever told him I paid all the bills. But I always pay all the bills so I guess he just assumed that since I paid 2, that meant I said I paid all of them?

So I did not validate, like "Wow it really must be annoying that you have to deal with this."

I gave him no positives like "Please, let me run over and pay these for you!"

I just completely ignored him. He has 2 choices, he can put on some big boy pants and take responsibility for his bills or go ask my mom for more money.

He borrowed first month, last month and the security deposit from my mother to get the apartment. I repeatedly warned her he will never pay her back, but she did it anyway. Since he is so far behind in child support, I expect the IRS should hand his refund over to me this year, so I will just hand that over to her to help pay for some of it. Not to help him, but she does not deserve to be out all that money.

I was spewing to my M yesterday and at one point I started complaining about something that I still have an issue letting go of. On Tuesday he came over and took ONE of his 3 kids out.

Yes, it was her birthday on Sunday.

But he has only seen the other ones like 3 times in the last 2 and a half months. And they were right there! I had to stop him from leaving without at least saying hi to D15.

So he took ONE kid out. I cant say that or re-read that sentence again, because my blood actually boils....

Speaking of my blood! I hurt my finger (not bad, just a sprain), but since I work at a college, they sent me to the onsite infirmary for the doc to look at it. (Darn doc was a woman ) anyway... they took my blood pressure and it was completely normal!

My blood pressure has been hospital high for about a year. Like when I am driving into a doctor, I force my self to breath and calm to try and get my blood pressure down far enough that they wont hospitalize me. I start thinking up believable lies, like "My BP is only up because I got into a huge fight with D17." I tell them anything I think they want to hear so they dont keep me.

I was astonished when I saw the normal reading. I used to get these episodes of irregular heart beats at night when I laid down for bed. I never told anyone. But when they took my BP I tried to remember the last time my heart had a dance party, and it was when H still lived here.

I really think these are all signs that I can push myself a little harder. There are these rowing machine thingys at the gym. They are super fun, but I could never do them because they would literally kill me if I tried. But the personal trainer they force you to talk to once when you get a membership told me they burn over 600 calories and hour. And apparently, 600 calories an hour is really hard to do. But I think I am gonna try it tonight. The kids will be out, I will be all alone. So they wont see me fail if things go badly on the machine.

Or I can pack...
Friday can be move day and unbelievably, Friday is TOMORROW??? how did that happen?