PP's WAW Adventure Continues - (8)

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Thank you Sotto, I appreciate your wisdom. That does seem to be the highest level of thinking about our situations. Yes, I played a role in the downfall of my M, but it also happened. And is still happening. I know lots of people that smoke cigarettes and don't have cancer. But if they were to get it, they would look back and have to do what we do here - take responsibility for whatever part they played in it, as well as figuring out how to move forward.

I have a friend that used to do a lot of drugs and then got Leukemia. She went through chemo, went into remission, stayed really healthy for a few months and now is back to doing drugs. Even though it's not my business, I keep thinking that she's going to have to go through some other kind of trial as the first one didn't wake her up.

Maybe she won't, who knows. But if she does, I won't be surprised.

For some reason thinking about her yesterday helped me. I thought that if I got diagnosed with cancer I wouldn't go back and have fake arguments with God that I really didn't smoke that much, nor did I eat all as many of the cancer causing foods that I did. Living in the past would do as much good in that situation as it does in my M. It's gone.

What I can do is make sure that I take every step to be healthy. Really healthy. And then live life to the fullest.

Woke up a bit depressed after dreaming of my W so I'm going to try to hold that view in my head today.

Hope there're some breakthroughs in the sitch's today.

PP