XH contacts kids:any thoughts

[peacetoday]

Thank you Irish

Your are right
I didn't realize it until today but it did rip open the wounds again

I have almost felt like it was another lifetime ago ,when I got the bomb
how hard it was
and how much I wanted to keep my M
and today I felt right there again as if It just happened
filled with unresolved grief that I thought I let go of 6 years ago

obviously, there is still some leftover pain,that I probably stuffed a long time ago

I also feel bad for him

and I still want resolution
I want control of this story and how it should end

I have to finish the grief work so I can really let go-its out of my hands

Thanks