Thanks everyone. I think I am going to take a break from the site and dedicate it to reading the book cover to cover (skipped around too much before). I don't post much be do read a lot. I clearly have a lot more to learn. Def not feeling optimistic at the moment.
Azzork, maybe I did it for my own neediness, I don't know. It did not feel like neediness, but it might have been. Usually when I do something for my own neediness I end up feeling terribly after. I need to do a better job.
MrBond,
I thought I had good goals with regards to DB'ing but maybe not. I just don't know.
The goals I had were/are basically:
1. To identify what really happened that led us to this point. What did I contribute? What did she contribute? What was a combo of the two? 2. Think about how I could fix what I was doing wrong that was not satisfying her needs so I would not be in this spot again either with her or someone else. 3. Determined not to go into a long term funk. Been there done that, it's god awful. Focused a lot on myself GAL'ing and what not. 4. I wanted to not pursue. It doesn't work, and I feel terrible while doing it (again been there, done that).
I think I have done all of these fairly well.
Just realized today is 4 months since BD.. maybe that's why I've been so scattered brained. Some say thats a short amount of time, it went by fast, but it sounds like a long time when I say it
