I am glad to read that you are well and living in beautiful Asheville. I can relate to so much about your situation and how grief and fear are so intertwined at the beginning for those of us receiving the BD.
MLC is a hideous thing and not something I would wish on my worst enemy. The man I knew and loved destroyed/abandoned everything and everyone. You are right that it is not about the marriage. People who end their marriages because of the marriage don't hit self destruct with their careers, children, parents and long time friends.
I am so glad you are healing. I feel a different tone in your posts and a peace.
Sending you love and encouragement as you embrace your authentic self.
{{{hugs}}}
M:25 years at BD w/ 2 daughters BD: 5/14 Separated 6/14 - H moved cross country w/OW D Final 9/17
“I can be changed by what happens to me. But I refuse to be reduced by it.” ― Maya Angelou