I get sad, melancholy when I realize I have no one to text too. I can text my mom if I want to hear negatives, I can text my best friend if I want to deal with alcoholism, I can text my D17 or my D15 if I want to be ignored, but no one to text just because.

I dont have little ones any more, but I understand how you feel about being an only parent. There are single moms, then their are only moms. Single moms have some kind of help from a father figure. The fathers take the children on weekends etc. Only moms do it ALL. They are the only one to be there. I hate hate being an only mom. That is why I get so grateful to the silly teens at the drive thru window. They have no idea how thankful I am that someone else cooked something for my children to eat.

I am glad you feel he is a mess AND you do not want that. It may not seem like a good place, but that is a great place to be. If only we could buy a house there, instead of flip flopping to the bad neighborhoods of "I will take him back no matter what condition he is in".


Me: 42
H: 45
M: 18 yrs T: 20 yrs
D: 17
D: 15
S: 12
I kicked him out 8/21/15
I will DB until March 21st 2017, that is it!