Hang in there. You won't find a better group of people who have/are going through the same thing you are who can give you the support you need.

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M-43 W-40
2D - 9 and 5

Emotion, yet peace.
Ignorance, yet knowledge.
Passion, yet serenity.
Chaos, yet harmony.
Death, yet a new life.

RECONCILED AND WISER