I feel ya on the hopelessness part. I cannot tell anyone when I feel hopeless because for some reason the world looks at hopelessness as suicidal. I am not suicidal, but I get very hopeless when things do not get better in the way I want them to, or in the way they should.
Try and remember things will always get better. Things will also always get worse, but it will not be exactly like it is now, ever, ever again. Every day you make it through is one step closer to getting out of the tunnel.
You do not need things to get better or worse to move forward. You just need to figure out a way to handle yourself no matter what is next.
Remember, there really are actual people on the other ends of the keyboards here, and they do care, and are 100% on your side no matter what you choose, unless you choose to wallow...
Me: 42 H: 45 M: 18 yrs T: 20 yrs D: 17 D: 15 S: 12 I kicked him out 8/21/15 I will DB until March 21st 2017, that is it!