You are self-aware isit, half way there! Just have to figure out a way to sense those triggers and change your reactions. I know, hard to do, but you can do it!
H:54 W:46 D:11 D:21 M:12 BD:1/15 In-house Separation 2/15 DB started 7/15, W sees consistency 9/15 Dropping the rope and having her leave 2/16, moves 5/16 Reconciliation 1/17 Obviously still struggling