PP's WAW Adventure Continues - (8)

[PigPen]

Had an interesting session with an IC this morning. She recommended "falling in love with the worst case scenario." If the worst case scenario is that I get D'd and never speak to my STXW again, could I find a way to fall in love with that. She said it's more of an exercise in the willingness to cultivate that feeling than just repeating to yourself that this is now the case. An open hearted willingness.

It was a tough one to swallow but sounds a lot like detaching and moving forward than a sociopathic view of my sitch. I see how easily I let myself get thrust back into the fantasy of a life back with my W and how it just spun me out. It's taken all the way to today to become productive again and even this morning think, "Well, my M is over, let's get back to building an amazing future without W."

I also found myself bursting out in tears again during meditations over the last few days so moving that energy through me was important.

Here's to another day of DB'ing.

PP