Time to let go ....How (4)

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thanks Cali, you are right about the fixing and finding a way to stop. I feel i am doing better and will get in below.


Update
Not a whole lot. As i mentioned yesterday i found myself still rushing to fix things for her when i said i may not be able to. Got kids and took them for some dinner. Rushed home to do homework, baths, snack of course! and get ready for bed. W came home and ate and took care of herself. she then comes to me and says she just got notification that the kids new mattresses were delivered to her new place at 8pm and she needed to go get them inside. Normally I would have offered to help or even do this for her. My response was OK. Got kids in bed and that was that.

ZThis morning was the ususal routine. S had his preschool halloween program at school. W had to run back to her new place as she forgot the costume he wanted to wear there. I took s to school and met her there. We had some time before the program so we were walking out and i decided to stay there because the parking gets bad and seats are limited. I saved two extra seats, one for her and one for her best friend who has a S that goes there. (this is the friend who is recently divorced from a bad situation but lives a pretty good life from well of parents, i know really helpful to me and my situation!) They both get there and everything is like no big deal, like she isnt moving etc..W friend has a baby girl that just started walking and is with her. I know her and she for some reason loves me. She is in my lap the entire time giving me kisses and hugs and just making me hold her. It was great. Show ended, little man did great. he used to not sing at all but now has taken a liking to it. I was making faces the entire time and he just kept waving to me.

stopped in calssroom and said goodbye to him and head ed to work. Got a text message from W best friend thanking me for haolding daughter. I told her it was great and brought back great memories of my kids being that size. also told her how awesome she was. she replied back thank you and she definitley loves you. I feel bad for her situation as her ex was a piece of work. She did ask me when W walked away how the kids were with everything which i found strange as she and W talk and text literally 1000 times a day. Maybe she knows they open up to me more. I jst said that we will see how they handle the actual final move day and i will make sure they are ok.

well i will get back around later today, ant get to the gym as my old age has set in and strained my forearm. [censored]

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