I really am in a good place. A place I never thought I would get to. But I have one thing that lingers over my head to get exactly where I want to be.
Everything is what it is with ex. I am at peace with it. he is who he is, our M was what it was and he did what he did. He's the kind of father he choses to be. it's just who he is. I accept it, I am not angry with anything anymore. We only communicate when necessary, yet are friendly and fine around each other for D8's stuff.
With ex come his W. They are indeed a package deal. And I am at a place I never thought I would be with her. No animosity, friendly conversation, accepting of her as my daughter's stepmother and an important adult figure in her life. She treats her well and that's what counts.
I know she will also be a part of our lives forever. even if they did divorce, she will be a part of D8's life forever. If ex didn't facilitate it, I actually would, if D8 wasn't old enough.
But there is still one thing hanging over my head to being that really really good place with her. I feel the urge for closure and perhaps even an apology. Or just an explanation. Why she did this. What went through her head as she dated a pregnant woman's wife. Part of me just needs to know the story. That she is sorry for it. Because even though she is good to my daughter, I just have a hard time viewing a person who do such a thing as a great role model or adult. Maybe if I had an understanding of what she was going through at the time and what she was thinking, I could finally put it to rest.
As you can see, I am at a place I am just ready to put everything behind me. But it's my one last roadblock. I'm going to talk about this with my IC. But you guys have known the ins and outs from the beginning. Any feedback if it would be the most awful thing to approach her in a friendly manner or how to just get past this would help.
