Mustardseed, I'm still reading and learning so much! Aware and not reactive! This needs to be my mantra. I'm stuck in the house with H until I get funds to get out. He sleeps elsewhere, thank goodness, but when he's here, he's not shy about applying pressure to me. I don't trust the look in his eyes these days. He's making me distinctly nervous. I did a good job of replying to him today by simply saying "I don't want to fight with you" or "I don't know".
I made a mistake when he asked me what I wanted from him in D, and I replied "only what I'm entitled to by law". He asked what that was, and I said 5-7 years spousal support, to which he said "not happening". I just didn't reply to that. He asked if I hired lawyer, and I said yes....totally ticked him off. He has one. Why can't I have one? I don't understand his thinking at all.
I wish I could leave. I'm really getting frightened. Too bad I wrecked my car...
