If it's not what you want, why would you ask for a divorce?
If I recommended that you throw in the towel and ask for a divorce would you? Why is that my decision? If three other people agree with me would you then? Why would it be our decision?
Sounds like you're trying to out play her with this decision angel.
What do you want to do independent of your W?
Do that.
M 39 W 36 T5 M3 BD - 1/15 Separated - Same Day Served 9/15 D finalized 6/17